Let's Get Personal Part 1

We're keeping it real right?

Well, today I had so much planned. I started working on a very sentimental piece and had even teamed up with a photographer to find corresponding images for the piece. The pictures were wonderful, the words were poetic. I was proud of it. Oh, it was going to be great.

Then, life happened. You see, if we're being honest, I haven't had the greatest week. I've felt so low the past couple of days. I've cried a lot for no apparent reason and I've been so moody. Even writing didn't help. I couldn't get in the right mindset to finish the piece or any other piece for that matter. I didn't even want to finish the piece. And I couldn't even read. Normally, I like to get lost in books but I found myself stuck reading the same pages over and over, without being able to make sense of the words.

But I didn't want to let the blog down by not posting anything. So I decided I was going to come here and upload one of my previous works. But none of them seemed right. Nothing just seemed to fit. I went through five poems, and three articles. But I just didn't feel comfortable with any of them.

So, I took a different approach. I decided to keep it 100 with you guys.

I'm going through a battle mentally and emotionally. Some days are okay and I'm back to my usual preppy self. My smile is as bright as ever, and there's the usual cheerful spring in my steps. Others suck so much that all I want to do is sleep. Those are the bad days cuz I don't eat either. Some days I'm happy and making everyone around me happy, like I love to do. Other days I have thoughts so dark that they scare me.

Honestly, I don't know why I'm telling you guys all this. But I don't want you guys to feel bad for me. Maybe I want you guys to be aware that even the toughest of us go through battles. Maybe I want the world especially, the African community to be made more aware of mental health issues. Maybe I want us to be more supportive of one another, to offer a kind word, to write a note of encouragement to the next person, to put a smile on a stranger's face.

I don't know. All I know is, I wanted to be honest with you.